HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DAY FILLED WITH HOPE, WHERE THINGS WERE GOING GREAT...WITH THE GENERAL FEELINGS OF JOY, PEACE, AND CONTENTMENT, ONLY TO LATER FEEL LIKE YOU GOT ON AN ELEVATOR(22ND FLOOR), AND WENT FROM 22 TO 1 IN 2 SECONDS FLAT? WHAT A FEELING OF IMPENDING DOOM THAT IS! AND BECAUSE OF A SMALL DISAGREEMENT WITH SOMEONE; ONLY TO HAVE THEM THROW IN YOUR FACE THAT "YOUR STAYING AT MY HOUSE...I DESERVE RESPECT!" I'M LIKE...HMMM! AND OTHERS DON'T JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE IN YOUR HOUSE? OK? WHATEVER! OK...CONTROL FREAK! LETS BE CAREFUL NOT TO HAVE A DIFFERING OPINION, OR HAVE A COME BACK FOR SOMETHING THAT WAS SAID FOR FEAR OF HAVING DARTS THROWN AT YOU!
THERE MUST BE A DIFFERENCE, THOUGH, BETWEEN FEELINGS OF DOOM, DISPAIR, AND BEING "LESS THAN WORTHY," AND STILL BEING HOPEFUL BECAUSE THERE IS "LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL." BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I WENT FROM FEELING OK/AVERAGE/CONTENT, TO SUDDEN DOOM WITHIN A FEW MINUTES OR SECONDS, I STILL CLING TO MY PERPETUAL HOPE THAT I WILL HAVE A JOB OF MY DREAMS AND A PLACE TO LIVE WITHIN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS; I AM RECIEVING ASSISTANCE IN THESE AREAS, "A HAND UP, NOT A HAND OUT," SO TO SPEAK. MY LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL IS DIM BUT GETTING BRIGHTER WITH EACH PASSING DAY BECAUSE GOD IS IN THE PICTURE...AND I WORK AT FOCUSING ON HIM(ITS WHEN I LOSE FOCUS THAT THE FAST ELEVATOR TO THE DUNGEON OF DOOM DOES ITS THING)!!!!
